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“I’ve seen Fire and I’ve seen Rain”
Life keeps moving way too quickly. I just turned 37. Mentally I feel about 14, and physically I feel about 70. But everything seems to be moving right along. The MS hasn’t made many ripples in my life lately. I’m battling a sinus issue/cold, and that is probably a little more difficult because of that silly monster and the drugs I have to take to fight it, but it isn’t anything that I haven’t dealt with before.
Right now I am concerned most with my house. We had some bad storms and some stuff got messed up. It is totally livable, but it isn’t the home that we bought. It is becoming way more work than it seems like it is worth. And unfortunately, my husband is kind of bearing the brunt of any work that needs to be done. On top of everything else that happens in life, this just adds stress. And stress is yucky. And unhealthy.
I wish that we were rich enough to be able to pay whomever we needed to pay to get everything done. I wish that the small things which keep adding up could be done simply. And of course not my myself or my husband. I’ve been trying to parcel off whatever housework that I can. My little brother has been keeping up our lawn. He does it irregularly which is very frustrating to my husband. But at least it saves us from having to do it. I wanted to hire a cleaning service to do a complete clean of the house one good time, but my husband pointed out that it would pretty much be pointless. My cats are old, and they pretty much mess where ever they want. A lot of it is hairballs and vomit, but plenty of it is kitty pee. Sometimes it makes me want to get rid of them. But they are my family. They have been in my life for almost 15 years, and they are always happy to see me. They are my children. I know that until they pass, I will always have their messes to deal with. And I don’t deal with them in as timely or efficient manner as I should. I am lazy. I am also tired. It would just be nice to have someone clean all of the floors well, and dust up all of the cobwebs. Those are things that I just don’t have the motivation to do. Yes, there are cobwebs surrounding our refrigerator. But there are no rotten foods in it! There are piles of cat hair and me hair all over the floor. But for the most part I get the vomit and piss cleaned up. I have spot cleaned the kitchen floor from where I have made ample messes. But those spots in the corners are still there. It just seems like there is way too much for any working couple to do. But we try. I am not embarrassed by those little messes and debris filling our home. I am quite proud of what we have and what we do. But I would love for everything to be better. I mean, who wouldn’t?
